I must be crazy. Here I am in my very last term of school (ideally for the rest of my life, but I have a sneaking suspicion I will find myself in grad school in the future) and I've heard of senioritis, the laziness that sets in when graduation comes clearly into view, but I am finding I definitely do not suffer from that dismissive affliction. Instead, I have discovered my last term of school is probably going to lead to a heart attack (or perhaps just a panic attack.) For some unknown reason, I am more stressed about my performance this term than I have been in quite some time. I think it's the fear of knowing a failed class at this stage of the game sets me back an entire term! There is no way I am going to allow that to happen!
Because I take my courses online, I have to log on every evening to view my readings, video lectures, discussion boards, assignments and returned work. As I watch the page load each night I get a knot in my stomach, anticipating a missed deadline or a poor score on an exam. When I finally close down my browser for the night, I often realize I had been holding my breath.
Thankfully, tonight when I logged on to my courses I was greeted by two full-credit discussion grades, one full-credit paper grade and a returned quiz with a score of 117% (I know lol) Talk about a relief! If only I could hold onto that feeling for a day or two....but I know that gnawing anxiety will be back in full force later tonight as I work on my discussion responses... 8 more weeks!